I realized today that I need to get back into being myself even though I don't feel like myself.
Myself likes to read, and write, and paint, and read magazines....plenty of magazines. Yet, I have this large pile of magazines, and good ones, that I have hardly touched.
It's hard here, dealing with the day to day of nothingness....
Just trying to stay upbeat and keep the eye on the prize.
The prize being a healthy little boy.
It's hard to be so lonely. Even though I have always loved, no cherished, my alone time. This is so different. So confining. So secluded.
I've been outside once in the last 2 weeks. Once. For this outdoorsey girl. Once. Yuck.
It's just me and my little man. Making it through day by day with little spurts of visits from family and friends.
My poor husband. This is so hard for him. Taking on all household responsibilities plus a fairly new job and spending time with me in the hospital.
All I can say is I'm a lucky girl!
So, getting back to ME.
I need to:
Read
Create
Believe
Trust
And just BE.
Borrowed from perfectsentiment.blogspot.com
One of my most favorite places to visit, which tonight really lifted my spirits.
Thanks Erin!
You are very strong. My thoughts are with you and you little man.
ReplyDeleteHere via Nancy to say congratulations on your little boy- my thoughts are with you & your family and hoping for a happy healthy at home family soon!
ReplyDeleteThere! I couldn't post a comment for the life of me. It would never five me the comment form. Anywho, congratulations on the birth of pj. I was so pround of you. He is gorgeous in everyway and can't wait until I get to hold him in my arms again. I also have newborn-3 Mon warm clothes he could start fitting into. We'll have to go by the storage and check out the two bins. Unless you think you have enough clothes for the coming fall and winter. Just let me know.
ReplyDeleteLove you! -nancy. Xoxo